+seeking for a solace +


another 4days to bid a farewell to year 2007...
and in d'next 4 days we realize dat we've been tru another year dat we gonna leave behind
we treasured d'life as much as we can and learnt lots of things about life.
at dis moment i think i cant even smile in every line dat i wrote,
yeah,lots of things happened in a year... realizing dat u achieved lots of ur target in a year,
u owned things wif ur own money-without depending on urparents(err...maybe for certain things, but already paid my dad lorrr *winking*), but still got 1 thing in life dat u r longing for which is d'most important thing and dat thing could make urvictories meaningfull by sharing it to d'person who really care about u.huh, nevermind.... this topic ,ill PASS...

ok,but dmost important thing dat ive learnt within a year is "please dont give other people too much of compliments, otherwise dat habit will give u bad impact eventually..."but somehow i cudnt manage myself from keep giving ppl compliments which i think it might be good for other party but actually i juz made them think im not as good as 'em or they put me low under their feet.i tell u 1 thing such u say "ouh,ur house is big and nice".. cool bangat!..so,dat person will think dat i never lived in dat kind of house or myhse must be damn narrow,small like im staying at kawasan setinggan.. *well,i dun really care pon if they want to think dat way* and in d'other stories is when u juz want to make ppl satisfy wif emself by saying,"no laa,u r good, u r smart,i dont know bout dis,i dun know bout dat if u ask me,but u know, it means dat u r smart in certain way"...so,dat ppl will think dat i memang know nothing bout dat thing or "she isnt really smart like i expected"...uh,yeah,im not perfect btw,but at dat moment i just want to make him/her feel happy,feel appreciated,fee l like sum1 notice his/her good side..but ergghhh...... y la dis kind of pll cant take my point...actually,i feel cormfy to make myfrens,my sisters and every1 in dis world feel like they r much more better than me *i dunno y i have dis kind of attitude but seriously,i cant bear when a fren of mine says "u r different maa,u can have dis,u can have dat...." and then ill say "no la,i cant buy everything,mydebts everywhere and blablalbla..then he/she will reply "ouh,yeah?its better be me,rite?no debts at all.." hahaha...deep inside me,i feel relief dat he/she will think dat their financial is much more better than me and they dun think dat im really good, but actually d'other feeling dat bewildering me is do they really think dat i cant manage my money well?ergghh...seee, i want them to realize dat they arent too bad,but at d'same time i made them feel like im really bad..damne!


haaaa..enough of talking bout sumthing which is not really interesting.i shud feel grateful for who im today,rite?

"hope for d'best and prepare for d'worst"

"we wont get everything dat we want in dis life"

face it n live wif it.


off~~