Saturday, May 12

+i'm SOOO0000 stress OooooOOOOOOtttttTTTTTT+

**aihhhh dude n dudette,tomorrow ill fly to jB for bout 1week to attend d'sea survival course n most probably i cant blog within that tyme--erghhh....tak sempat update blog pasal hanoi....damne!ok peeps,done.......~daa....

Friday, May 11


is let everythin go wif d'flow....
hoping dat dis time all d'promise made will b'fulfild..
all d'things said will b'.....ok-enuff of reminding things for few times...*wee*
d'best word is.....I TRUST......I BELIEVE....I HAVE FAITH....
ok....still dun hav much time to put dis blog lenghty...
woke up a bit late dis morning and went for offshore medical sheck up rushing-lY..
have to wait for a very long tyme n it was freaking me out!
Y they dun want to serve me first?n Y they took a very long tyme eventho want to d a job s-simple-s-doing-Xray?simple?ermm...i have no idea actually...hehee..
but..I HATE WAITING *erggghhh*
nothing much to say....ermmmm...cheer up dis blog wif 1cute girl =)
fullhouse~~~~~~~~~han ji en a.k.a kookoo...yeahhh~~

*always wish dat i was cute s she is.....*uwaa....comel2x.....

Thursday, May 10

+an intention....+

to LIVE LIFE S IT IS....but i cant...haih....
ouh...btw,will update bout my hanoi's trip soon =)
been very bz lately wif visa application,medical check up and all....
ouh,btw,im happy go on vessel.
heard dat ill sent there again since they need more engineers onboard..yeayyyyy!!!

wif dat...~daa peeps!

Thursday, May 3

+i'll PASS..+

okie,today i think we have to think&learn bout metaphysic s well.
LIFE.D'tranquillity dat we wished and prayed in dis life.LIFE.could b plain n boring.could b monotonous sumtymes.could b hard as GOD give the tests upon us,or we could live rejoicely when we think we have everything dat we want.but LIFE will never be dat easy even u own d'whole i dont have tyme to seek out other people's defects and mistakes,i juz write this post to make me realize bout mymistakes and what i've done so far.i will never blame any1 as every1 has their own opinion n as i've learned since i was young,nobody's,for me FORGIVE&FORGET will b'd'best solution for now eventho it'll leave a small piece of scar in myheart.eventho i think i dont deserve to b treated like dis n dat.but i'll pass.ill juz face this is LIFE.this is D'real WORLD.takde sape2 pon yg boley puaskan hati sape2 kat dunia ni.NOBODY.PEOPLE make mistakes.Y keep on blaming each other?..dats Y i think 4 myself..its better b QUITE.never broadcast it to every1 tru anY medium.not n never thinking dat im wrong,u r correct or u r wrong n im correct i juz think of let assume dat everything had happened in dis life as a "process of learning" for us and it will always b few mistakes done s an imperfect person.what we shud do to improve ourselves here is to minimize d'number of mistakes dat might happen and learn from d'mistakes dat we've made in d'past.LIFE IS LEARN.Plus i juz want to withdraw peacefully from places where idle agruments are going on.dats Y i want to back off. Back off didnt mean ill throw d'friendship down to D'drain,back off didnt mean dat im lose.NO.lets our MIND&HEART decide for ourselves.Never let d'anger or enviness destroy everything. Bcoz i think the fire of envy consumes the body and excessive jealousy is like a ranging,better b satisfied by what we've got and we've earn today....better we b thankfull for where we r today.So,for me i think,i juz want to leave people to their Creator,leave the envier to death and definitely ill forget bout enemies. i have GOD,if GOD is wif me,then whom do i have t fear?if GOD is againts me,then what hope do i have?so,i dont n never think dat i lose d'world if i wasnt winning a friendship bcoz even all d'people in d'world show their back to me,i still have GOD.i still have faith wif dis life.i do believe on what we give,we'll get it back. in dis life,ive made lots of mistakes.i im very thankfull bcoz usually ill know and being close to sum1 dat cud change me,cud make me realize bout mymistakes.but sumtymes i juz doesnt being thankfull for their effort to change me.i neglected them.SORRY..dats all i can say.but im regrate when d'2years relationship down to d'drain when i really dont want it to happen.i was trYing to HOLD but i was faild.but HE deserve to hate me.myfault.mymistakes.juz i HATE d'way i lost him.but this 1 also ill pass.juz i hope dis GUY "will extinguish the flames of hatred by forgiving who has ever hurt u."n now i have sum1 wif me who always trying to change myself to b s a better person and accepted me for who im.he consults&guide me in everything.thank to u =)
and s for myfriends like sity,we still can hold dis friendship for almost 10years.MUSTANG s well.We've been into fight sumtimes and there was a time when we gave up trying,but still......we tried to hold dis friendship thightly n dont want to lose every single piece of memories dat we shared together since our secondary school.bcoz we know,budak2 saja yg mau gado2 ni,n we know kite tak boley nak puaskan hati masing2,so juz dissolve every1 weaknessess is d'best way.and for R'mc,ive neglected u for many times but still....u care n forgive me n we forgive each other bcoz we noe,this life,takde sape boley ni if kite senang,org cari kite,and suatu mase akan tiba,bile kite susah kite pulak akan cari is juz like a wheel.not always will b'up there.1 day,we'lll go down n better b prepared.ermm....all i hope now is a belssing from GOD and i hope dat soon the flowers will bloom,grief will depart and happiness will prevail.dats all. For people ou there,for frens,pardon me of myignorance,negligence and mistakes dat ive done,and thank GOD for such xperience dat we've been tru learning to minimize mymistakes and for me now, i think ill juz keep dis in mymind "ill show mercy to d'weak and ill b'happy,give to d'needy and ill b well and d'most important thing is do not bear grudges and ill b'healthy.insya ALLAH.may GOD bless ME.U.US.

++++++++++++++end of metaphysic post for today =)++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

Wednesday, May 2

+Longing for a blissfull moment+

yupp...after quite long in unannounceD hiatus mode,im backk!!!!..=)
juz to inform every1 dat ill b in hiatus mode from 5th-8th may bcoz of HANOI
sadly i hav to leave mymom bcoz of her illness,she's not feeling well lately,was vomittng out everything dat she ate since few days ago,she lookd everything was spininning on d'ceiling*sigh*---GOD please help him *praY*
so,will do backpacking wif d'other 2 stooges (mYc's of coz) n it'll b more fun when i can bully d'other stranger (imran of coz) during our vietnam trip..
tak saba2 nak pergi..aiyoo....=)

ouh,task to B'accomplishD::

1)applY visa to go to d'vessel bY d'end of dis month
2)check d'flight ticket to jB on 13th may and make a confirmation for it A.S.A.P
3)prepare myself physically&mentally to face d'hard life onboard(luckily feroz&alex who r now in norway to attend their school already buzz me yesterday n said dat ill b in d'same crewchange wif em..sgt beshh!!!(ouh,but hafto ignore all d'words dat came from sabby last week regarding to no shopping for two months,no this n no that....sabby sgt jahat.wuwuwuwu..(calming myself--*wee*)

~DAA peeps~~
++D'value of a frienDship...++

finallY....he left me...n his next stop is a land field crew in algeria...
s u wish stef,sumthing different dat cud gain lots of xperiences for urlife..
from vessel to d'office n now u want to join d'land crew...
long way to go for me...really hope dat we could success together in schlumberger..
Do pray for me...yeah,may we progress...(u r already done much of progressions by joining dis company almost 12years of coz, n now do pray fo me =))
erghh...too bad..cant spend longer tyme wif stef..i'll miss u stef.
now he already took off to singapore for his vacation n he went to redang bforehand.
at least i still had tyme to sit down n talk to him bfore he leave me..thank GOD...
juz ill always remember our valuable tyme together n hope dat dis friendship will last forever.....thanks for everything stef,especially urtyme n gifts.....

"s we go On,we;ll remember all d'tyme we had together"